On February 3rd 2019 at 6:23 pm our son Matthias was born.
We are grateful to the Lord to allow us to have this sweet baby boy apart of our lives.
During pregnancy many women are curious, fearful and perhaps worried about how labor and delivery will be. Despite all the stories we have heard, every woman’s experience will be different. I have a few friends who were also due around the same time, and after delivering our babies we all asked each other how the experience was. After sharing, it confirmed how different everyone’s experience is.
My labor and delivery did not go as I imagined, but whose does?
My contractions started at around 2:45 am that Sunday morning. After being admitted to the hospital, my contractions became inconsistent. They were close together and then became further apart. Many hours had passed by and I wasn’t dialating much either. I was encouraged to walk around and do some exercises that would help move things along.
While I was pregnant I remember saying that I preferred a drug free labor when the time comes. Not that I’m against it but I personally try not to take pain medication of any kind unless I physically feel it’s necessary. I laugh now when I think about the time I thought because I have a high pain tolerance I should be okay during labor… well the joke was on me. After bearing the pain for a while, those contractions showed me who was boss and I opted for an epidural.
The epidural was helpful but shortly after everything changed..
Earlier I said women often think about how their labor and delivery will be. Well in my mind I thought that this baby would come quickly, and that I would deliver naturally. Well that all changed when Matthias’ heart rate dropped drastically. During early labor the baby’s heart rate was steady but then became inconsistent. Later on in labor shortly after receiving the epidural Matthias’ heart rate plummeted. Before my husband and I knew it, there were about 6 doctors and nurses that came rushing in and my hopes of having a natural delivery were gone. I was wheeled off to the operating room to have an emergency C-section.
I remember as the nurse was preparing me to go the OR I turned to her and asked if taking the epidural is what caused this. I was feeling guilty for going against my original plan for a drug free labor. I thought to myself if I just held out perhaps this wouldn’t happen. The nurse stooped down at my bedside, looked at me and grabbed my hand and said this is not your fault. You are doing awesome.
I remember praying for the Lord to be with me and though I felt nervous I felt God’s peace over me. I knew that everything will be alright. I had family and friends praying for me and my husband who was an awesome support throughout the process -who was also scared out of his wits, was praying and asking friends to join in prayer too.
I’ve never had any type of surgery before so this was a scary time for us. I didn’t know what to expect. I was numbed from the waist down and didn’t feel a thing. It was a strange feeling but I kept the faith and asked the Lord to skillfully guide the hands of the surgeons. Not long after the procedure our son Matthias was here. Unable to move, my husband showed me our baby boy and I cried tears of joy.
So my thoughts of a quick, natural labor and delivery turned out to be a long 12 hour labor and an emergency C-section. I realized after it all unfolded that this was the Lord’s will. Often times we are in wonder of why things happen to us or why they don’t go the way we expect. I will never know what could’ve happened if Matthias was born naturally but the fact that Matthias and I are both healthy and that he was born without any health issues I have peace in knowing that everything went the way that it should.
8 “For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways,” says the Lord.
9 “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways, And My thoughts than your thoughtsIsaiah 55:8-9- Holy Bible- New King James Version (NKJV)
I am thankful that the Lord is gracious and mindful of us. I may have my own plans and ideas of how I want life’s experiences to play out but God ultimately knows best and he wants the best for us.
Ladies who are expecting, cast all your worries and fears upon Jesus Christ. Allow him to overshadow you with his perfect peace. Trust Him throughout the process. May you be encouraged!
Isaiah 66: 9, Holy Bible- New King James Version (NKJV)
Shall I bring to the time of birth, and not cause delivery?” says the Lord.
“Shall I who cause delivery shut up the womb?” says your God