Hi All! It’s been a while since I’ve posted on my blog. As we all know the world has taken a hard turn with the Coronavirus pandemic. I have been focusing on other things like taking care of myself, spending time with my family and adjusting to the current normal with social distancing regulations.
Truthfully I have been working on this post since February and then things just got busy and chaotic so I didn’t get to finish writing. So i’ll be sharing some stuff that has happened in my life since February until now… Get some tea or coffee 🙂 lol
The month of February was a whirlwind for me. Things really picked up the pace and I was just thrown into it all .
Well to start the month off my sweet boy turned a year old! Where did the time go? It literally feels like just yesterday I shared Matthias’ birth story, and here we are with a 1 year old 😮 It’s funny how we celebrate the things our children do for the first time- learning to sit up, clapping, eating on their own and walking. These are things we’ve been doing for a very long time and we easily take for granted.
The first year of motherhood has been very interesting. I realize that a mother carries a lot on her shoulders (& I’m not just talking about the diaper bag). Often times I ask myself, “Am I doing this right?” or “How do I become like “that” mom?”. The questions could go on, but I also realized that as much experience other mom’s may have no one can mother your child(ren) like you can. You will start to learn your own mothering ways/style as you enter into this role and you will learn your child and your child will learn you. Many will offer their advice but you will learn what works for you and your family.
In February I also returned to work… Many people asked me how did I feel about leaving my son and returning to work? To be honest I didn’t know how I was going to feel until I returned. It was bittersweet but I am fortunate to have my husband care for Matthias while I’m at work. It makes a difference when I know that my child is in the care of someone I know personally than with people I am unfamiliar with. On my lunch break we FaceTime so I still get to communicate with my two boo bear’s.
I am grateful for Canada and their maternity leave standards because I was able to take a year off from work to be with my son. The year was a great one to be honest. I spent a lot of time bonding with my son and husband and just relished in my new role as Mama. I was able to accomplish some tasks and I also feel that I’ve had the time to grow spiritually, intellectually and emotionally.
It’s important that as parents we still find the time to nourish ourselves- Physically, Mentally, Emotionally and Spiritually. I recently came across a post called “Mom Truth’s” It discussed how mothers tend to lose themselves in motherhood. I believe that its possible for a mother to lose “herself” in motherhood, but I do think its preventable. The truth is motherhood/fatherhood will forever change you. There will be aspects of life that won’t be the same. In order to combat this, I think its important to set aside time for an activity that makes you happy. This is a choice you have to make for yourself. Whatever that activity is, it will help you feel like you’re in control of something that is solely yours.
Many years ago I started blogging. I stopped because other things took precedence, however I remembered how good it felt to share my thoughts and experiences with others and to just write whatever was on my heart. Once I found out I was pregnant I said to myself that I’m going to pick up blogging again so that it can be a forum where I share my experiences as a new mom, and other things. I’m so glad that I continued… When I get a quiet moment I like to write. It feels great to know that this is my domain, my area, my space. Though I get interrupted at times and have to click “save draft” a few times (lol) I still continue to write.
Taking care of yourself doesn’t mean me first, it means me too…@every_mother
So Mama’s (& Dad’s too!), find something for yourself because you deserve something solely for you. I saw a quote that says “Taking care of yourself doesn’t mean me first, it means me too”. I think this is important to note. You don’t have to feel selfish or guilty because you choose to do something for yourself. You may not be able to put yourself first anymore but you still owe it to yourself to take care if you.
At the end of February my son got sick. It was an awful thing to experience as a parent. I heard that no matter how old your child gets, it’s still difficult to go through sickness with your child. Its especially difficult when your child is at an age when they can’t communicate exactly what they are feeling. It was a rough experience and I did cry a couple of times but I’m glad that he got better quickly.
Its been said that we learn from children. Something that my son and most kids in general exemplify is resilience.
able to withstand or recover quickly from difficult conditions.
Have you ever seen kids who are sick & still find ways to play & find joy?
I learned from my son. I learned that in spite of painful and uncomfortable moments we can still find reasons and ways to express gratitude, happiness and joy- like the silver lining. The experience of being uncomfortable doesn’t mean that we wont fuss or cry but we are able to withstand our current conditions. Another word for withstand is longsuffering.
In March I ended going through a bout of sickness but thank God it didn’t last long. Something bit me on my forehead (unknown to me) and it caused an infection. I woke up one morning with a small lump on my forehead and swollen lymph nodes. Over the next few days the lump on my forehead grew into a huge goose egg… Yeah I was worried at this point. I ended up having to take antibiotics for it, and eventually the swelling went down and I wasn’t feeling as weak in my body anymore.
As mentioned before, my son had eczema (yes I said had & I’ll share why). A few months after my son was born he started exhibiting signs of eczema. It was difficult to go through because Matthias would itch uncontrollably and sometimes break the skin. No matter how much we moisturized him, gave him a soothing bath, and put on mittens to prevent scratching his eczema still was there. We tried many natural/steroid free products on his skin (our personal choice).
When his eczema became worse I remember being so frustrated. We would pray earnestly about his eczema. Some may think that since eczema is such a worldwide condition and one that isn’t “detrimental” why worry so much? Well I’ve heard from eczema sufferers that I know personally and on the internet how eczema affects their quality of life. I know we all go through something in life but this is something that was hard to see my baby experience and I wanted to find ways to help relieve him of this.
I remember reaching out to my doctor in December 2019 and she suggested to see an allergist/dermatologist. Unfortunately, we were put on a wait list for the FOLLOWING YEAR!! I felt helpless and frustrated. I remember standing in the kitchen one day and I was fed up… I was sad that I was told that I had to wait a year to find out what was wrong with my baby. I spoke to the Lord in my heart and said “what is causing this”? I turned around and my eyes were fixed on his formula that was sitting on the counter. The Lord revealed to me that the milk proteins found in his formula is what is causing his flare up.
I am not saying formula is bad… Its a great supplement for mothers who cannot or choose not to breastfeed. I realized that I just wasn’t using the right type of formula.
After this revelation I ran to the store lol… Mama bear mode kicked in. I probably should have checked in with the doctor before trying to change his formula but I wanted this to work and I wanted it to work now. I bought hypoallergenic formula and after feeling so confident with this Word from the Lord under my wings I expected everything to be resolved immediately. Well… turns out the hypoallergenic formula tastes horrible. I gave this to my son, he took a sip and dashed his bottle away and cried. I attempted this throughout the day and days following but he wasn’t having it. (I continued to give him his previous formula).
I was a little sad about it and realized that I’m going to have to wait this out.
Sometimes God will reveal something to us but how or when it gets to the point of resolve isn’t always revealed…. We have to keep the faith.
When Matthias was six months old and we started giving him solids, we gave him allergy prone foods and found that dairy made his eczema flare up… another confirmation. Since he was too young to start regular milk and he wasn’t taking hypoallergenic milk I had no choice but to keep giving him his regular formula. I couldn’t use certain products until he was at least a year old.
As you could imagine it was hard to go through but with the natural products we were using and avoiding dairy foods, it helped calm his eczema down. Though we had to wait a year before seeing the allergist/dermatologist I felt confident with the Word the Lord gave me and the evidence I saw for myself.
Fast forward to late March after Matthias turned a year old, we started to think about what options he can have for milk since it was already made aware to us of his dairy allergy. We still are on the wait list for December 2020, but my mother in law who sees a Naturopath from time to time suggested that we should see the naturopath regarding allergy testing now that Matthias is a year old.
Well we were excited for his appointment and the moment of truth…
He has a cow’s milk allergy.
The naturopath recommended goat milk. We ran over to the health food store and bought some. We found out our son has expensive taste… He didn’t like the goats milk… (Neither did I lol) So we opted for sheep milk which he is okay to have, and he loves it!
It has been a month since he stopped his formula with milk proteins and his eczema is cleared up- no more flare ups. He doesn’t itch as much (some of his itching is more if he’s tired or bored than it is if he’s really itchy). I’m not saying this is how eczema is cured because every eczema sufferers severity is different and every body function is different. I just wanted to share this experience with you all.
That was my life over the past few months in a nutshell. Please share your experiences. I look forward to blogging again and sharing with you all 🙂
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